My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1951 - 1745: Tactful

Some people have the ups and downs of life, yet they don’t know what kind of life they should lead!

Ran Zhihan suddenly felt he simply didn’t know how to articulate what Chen Gang had done. He didn’t know why he had become the focus of a fight between two men today. He never thought he would one day harm all those who love him.

Everyone has a heart made of flesh; no one can always be neglected but still keep waiting. Yet he never expected that even after speaking so harshly to Chen Gang time and again, Chen Gang would still not let go and continue to wait. In fact, she always hopes to have the woman she loves, never giving up.

"Actually, there’s really no need for you to dwell on the past. We can’t go back to the beginning. Back then, you made me really happy. I’m so happy to have you as a friend because you gave me such a bright and sunny feeling. At that moment, I felt you were a kind boy, one who would never do anything to trouble me. From that day on, I fully trusted you. But today, I realized that my trust in you wasn’t complete, for you didn’t trust me. You’ve always been using your possessiveness to manipulate your rationality, making your rationality at a loss, not knowing what you should do. Do you know? How much I hope you could return to how you were before. How much I hope one day you can understand that we don’t necessarily have to be a couple, nor do we have to be lovers. Being the best of friends isn’t impossible either!"

Chen Gang laughed: "Yes, Zhihan, from your point of view you can indeed act like this, because now you’re lying in someone else’s arms laughing, while I hide quietly in a corner crying. You haven’t considered my feelings; you’ve not thought about what I need most right now. I merely need a word of comfort from you, just a warm hug. But you have heartlessly extinguished all my hopes. Do you know? I have longed for the day when, if you could turn back and wish to come back to me, I would give everything in the world to have you willingly stay by my side. But now I realize it’s not enough for me to wish alone. Your heart is not with me; no matter what I do, you won’t let me be with you. In your eyes, there is only the man before you. I don’t exist for you. Once you said you considered me your best friend, but now I no longer care. All I want is for us to become the unique couple in the world, not just ordinary good friends."

"If you think like this, well, Chen Gang, I’m going to give you a clear answer right now. Don’t waste any more effort. No matter what you do, I won’t leave. The man I love most is the one who gave me a beautiful youth, made me feel romantic, took me one step at a time to today, made me understand that truly being good to others also brings rewards. I’ve waited for him for so many years, and he has waited for me equally long. How could I bear to hurt him yet discard her alone? Not to mention I’m unwilling, even if I were, I wouldn’t abandon him because he’s given me too much. If my love for him has long exceeded the love for my own life, I love him selflessly, only hoping to see him every day, to see him happy because of my happiness, to see him cheerful because of my joy, and I am satisfied.

Such a life, for someone like you, you wouldn’t understand because you don’t even know what kind of life you truly want. But do you know? The life I want is very simple, as ordinary as can be. All I want, on the day I get married, is for my prince to hold my hand and walk down the aisle together. And my dreams are coming true; the man I love most got married to me. I’ve waited for him for over ten years, and he has waited for me equally long. In retrospect, I’ve endured to the end and tasted the sweetness."

I believe I haven’t wronged you. From the start, we’ve never been together, so how could there be betrayal? Since we’ve never betrayed anyone, nor been together, then why must you disrupt my peaceful life? Give me a way out; just consider this as me begging you. Don’t use your so-called love to hurt me again. I can’t bear your repeated blows and injuries. All I truly want is this much—please let me go and give me a chance to choose my own life, a chance to choose my lifelong happiness!"

"Zhihan, is it in your eyes that I’ve always been forcing you? Ask yourself honestly. Over the years, you may not be aware of my love for you, but everyone around me knows I drive every woman away because I can’t bear you seeing me with another woman and having that heartbreaking look. Because when I think of that look, not only your heart will hurt, but mine does even more. I can’t bear to see you shed any tear for anyone. But eventually, I realize that no matter how much I care about you, it’s nothing but a mirage in the end because, in your heart you don’t have me like this. How can I bear to be with you?

Originally, I had already decided to let go, to let you two live happily. If you hadn’t told me this today, I would’ve gracefully let go, confidently turned away and never come back to linger, never come back to entangle with you. But you just had to say those heartless words, making me change my mind now. What I can’t have, I won’t let anyone have either, even if I must use every trick and means. I want your life to be as shattered as mine. Why should you have joy when I live so painfully?"

"Is your happiness built on my pain? Does seeing my pain truly make your heart happy? Is this your so-called love for me? When did your love become so hypocritical, so worthless? Do you know, this makes me truly despise you?"

"Your respect or disrespect for me holds no meaning to me. I no longer care about your thoughts or your feelings. But please don’t entangle with me anymore. I’m begging you. There’s really no possibility between us. And please don’t use your so-called love to hurt me again. I can’t bear your love; it’s too selfish and autocratic. I genuinely can’t accept such a love; it makes my heart utterly tormented!"

I don’t know who is on whose shore; all I know is that life is so difficult.