civilwarnovels Chapter 459: School Girl's Ideal
Chapter 459: School Girl's Ideal
After separating from Lu You, Tang Wan wandered around alone.
When you meet someone you know, just wave and say hello, chat briefly, and when you see a sign, stop and look at the school profile and the admission score lines in previous years.
The difference is that Lu You is not around, and Tang Wan no longer has the mood to complain.
Half an hour later, Tang Wan stood under a big tree next to the playground.
Now that she had finished touring the venue and met all the people she knew, the teacher didn't want to visit her, and there was still another forty minutes before the gathering. For a moment, Tang Wan had nothing to do.
"So boring! I want to go home and sleep!"
It had been a long time since she had gotten up at six o'clock, so Tang Wan felt her eyes dry, her back ached early on, and she wished she could lie down there and die.
Just as Tang Wan was thinking about what to do to pass the time, a hand reached out from behind and patted her shoulder.
"Senior Tang Wan?"
"Who?" Tang Wan turned around subconsciously.
"It's really you, Senior Tang Wan, I thought I recognized the wrong person!"
The cute girl walked up to Tang Wan excitedly, her expression as excited as if she had met an idol-chasing girl.
She stared at Tang Wan's dyed hair for a few seconds and said in surprise, "I didn't expect that senior sister would dye her hair!"
Looking at the girl's delicate face, it didn't take Tang Wan a moment to recognize who she was.
"Long time no see, Zhao Xuemei."
Tang Wan responded with a smile and took a small step back calmly.
Tang Wan always remains highly vigilant against anyone who has improper thoughts about her except Lu You, regardless of whether they are men or women.
Zhao Shichen seemed not to notice Tang Wan's little action, and said in surprise: "Senior Tang Wan, you still remember me!"
Tang Wan smiled and said nothing.
She confessed her love to me in front of my husband, and I can’t forget it even if I want to!
Zhao Shichen was a little happy in his heart, and he smiled softly, "It seems that Senior Sister has a deep impression of me. I wonder if it is a good impression or a bad impression?"
Tang Wan didn't want to chat with Zhao Shichen, so she asked directly, "Junior sister, are you okay? If not, I'll leave first."
At this point, no matter how stupid Zhao Shichen was or how low his EQ was, he could clearly feel that Tang Wan disliked him.
Zhao Shichen sighed secretly, and the excitement in his smile due to the long-awaited reunion also dissipated.
What can I do? I made them all myself.
Being young and naive, the little head controlled the big head and he confessed his feelings on impulse, and this was the result.
As for remaining friends after a failed confession, that obviously doesn't work for Tang Wan.
Zhao Shichen suppressed the pain in his heart, and managed to maintain a smile, saying: "Senior sister, you don't have to be so wary of me. I can't eat you."
This is impossible to say.
Tang Wan thought secretly, without letting down her guard at all.
Seeing this, Zhao Shichen knew that it would be extremely difficult for him to get along well with Tang Wan, so he had to change the subject and said, "Senior, I just came to the university recruitment fair. Can you please take me around and introduce me to someone?"
Tang Wan felt relieved.
Fortunately, he didn’t ask me out for dinner.
"That's all?"
"Yes, just this one thing."
"You come with me."
The two walked into the venue.
Tang Wan was in front and Zhao Shichen was behind, with a distance between them.
Perhaps because the parent-teacher conferences are over, there are a lot more people at the exhibition at this time, and it feels like being in a vegetable market.
It was also because of the large number of people that Tang Wan's tense mood relaxed.
In front of everyone, I guess my junior schoolmate can’t do anything to me.
"Junior, do you have a university you want to apply to?"
Zhao Shichen looked around, roughly and quickly collecting information from the booths she passed by, and said, "The first target is tentatively Capital University."
Tang Wan's heart skipped a beat.
It’s broken, it won’t come towards me, right?
"What about major? What major do you plan to choose?" Tang Wan asked repeatedly.
Zhao Shichen suddenly paused, her eyes drooped, and an inexplicable sadness lingered around her.
"I plan to choose clinical medicine in the medical school."
Tang Wan walked in front and could not see Zhao Shichen's negative expression, but she felt that her tone was a little low.
The moment Tang Wan heard that Zhao Shichen's preferred major was clinical medicine, her heart settled down.
Phew! Great, it wasn't directed at me!
"Study medicine! Studying medicine is very hard. Are you sure?"
Zhao Shichen put away his messy emotions, gathered his spirits again, and said seriously: "I'm sure."
"Oh, look at my brain!"
Tang Wan seemed to have thought of something she had missed, slapped her forehead, and turned to look at Zhao Shichen.
"I've been talking about school and majors, but I haven't asked you about your grades. Where do you rank in your class on exams?"
“I’ve never fallen out of the top ten in my grade, and occasionally made it into the top five.”
During his freshman and sophomore years in high school, Zhao Shichen was consistently ranked in the top five in his grade and was a strong contender for the top three.
But when they entered the third year of high school and entered the first round of review, several strong men between their teens and thirties seemed to have been enlightened. Their skills increased greatly and they were able to stand on the same level as Zhao Shichen.
Except for the martial arts leader who is at the top of the list, with extraordinary skills and unrivaled in the academic world, the remaining nine seats often change.
"Top ten in the grade, clinical medicine at Capital University School of Medicine, which is not that difficult."
Tang Wan recalled the college entrance examination results of Chunhua Science Class last year.
Nine of the top 100 students in the province were admitted to the Tsinghua and Peking University classes. A total of 15 students were admitted to the Capital University and Wudaokou University, six of whom were outside the Tsinghua and Peking University classes and took the Strong Foundation Program.
As long as the level of Zhao Shichen's class is not much worse than that of the previous class, he will be in the top ten of the grade and will be admitted to the Capital University School of Medicine.
You should know that although Capital University’s main campus and medical school are both Capital University, their admission codes are independent, and the latter’s score line is slightly lower than the former’s.
"It just so happens that President Jiang is also here at the briefing. He majors in clinical medicine at Peking University's Peking University School of Medicine. Why don't you talk to him?" Tang Wan asked.
Zhao Shichen smiled happily, "That couldn't be better!"
Passing through the crowded crowd, the two came to the tents of Capital University and Wudaokou.
It was still deserted here, with only a few students and parents looking at the sign, but no one came forward to ask questions.
Yu Xiuqing and Jiang Mingsheng were enjoying their free time, one of them was browsing his phone with his chin on his hand, while the other was watching a video with a Bluetooth headset on.
It was such a deserted scene that if it weren't for the signboards and banners clearly indicating the name of the school, Zhao Shichen would have no doubt that he had come to the wrong place.
One of the best universities in the country, is this how popular it is?
Tang Wan saw through Zhao Shichen's thoughts and explained with a smile: "In the entire Chunhua, there are no more than 20 people who are capable of rushing to the capital and Wudaokou. Naturally, it is not as lively as other schools."
"That's true." Zhao Shichen nodded and accepted this statement.
"Let's go and ask the president some questions."
The two men walked forward, and Logan clenched her right hand and knocked on the table with her knuckles.
"President, we have a guest."
Jiang Mingsheng raised his head, looked at Tang Wan, then looked at Zhao Shichen, then took off his headphones and smiled gently.
"Xuemei Zhao, do you have any questions?"
Tang Wan looked back and forth at Jiang Mingsheng and Zhao Shichen, and asked in surprise, "Do you two know each other?"
Jiang Mingsheng nodded slightly and said, "I have met him several times during school meetings."
Yu Xiuqing, who was standing by, heard the noise and quickly moved a stool over.
"After waiting all morning, we can finally open! Come on, junior, tell me all your questions, and the president and I will do our best to answer them for you."
Zhao Shichen pondered for a moment, quickly organized his words in his mind, and said, "What should I do if I want to treat depression?"
When these words were spoken, all three people present were shocked.
"Your question is very serious and I can't answer it. I suggest you go back and have a good talk with your parents and ask them to take you to the hospital and see a psychiatrist for treatment." Jiang Mingsheng said seriously.
Zhao Shichen shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't express myself clearly. What I meant was not that I have depression, but that I want to treat other people's depression."
"Who are the others you are talking about?" Jiang Mingsheng asked.
Zhao Shichen remained silent.
Seeing that she was unwilling to say, Jiang Mingsheng did not pursue the matter further.
Who doesn’t have some unspeakable privacy?
"Depression is a common mental disorder that falls under the category of mental health and is diagnosed and treated by psychiatry. Do you understand what I mean?"
"I understand. So if I want to be a psychiatrist, which major should I choose?"
Jiang Mingsheng did not give an answer immediately, but asked: "Which school do you plan to apply to?"
"Capital University School of Medicine."
"How sure are you?"
"Unless we encounter force majeure, I am 90% sure." Zhao Shichen's tone was flat, as if he was stating an objective fact.
Jiang Mingsheng thought for a moment and replied, "Member of the Capital University School of Medicine, apply for clinical medicine for undergraduate studies, and switch to psychiatry for postgraduate studies."
"Okay, thank you, President."
Zhao Shichen had searched on Baidu in advance and found that what he found was basically the same as what Jiang Mingsheng said.
Afterwards, Zhao Shichen asked a few more questions about clinical medicine, and Jiang Mingsheng patiently answered them one by one.
……
The sun gradually climbed to the top of the day, pouring a little sunshine to the world through the gaps in the clouds, bringing the only warmth to the damp and cold southern land.
One of the beams of light fell right on Chunhua's playground.
Tang Wan looked up at the sky, the light shining on her face, a light layer of white fluff was clearly visible, but it did not destroy the overall beauty of her face, but instead made her look more cute.
"The sun is finally out!"
Zhao Shichen stood beside Tang Wan in the same posture and said, "Yes! Ever since the cold front moved south, we haven't seen the sun for several days!"
Tang Wan put her hands together, made a prayer gesture, closed her eyes and said, "I hope the cold air will leave soon and give me warm and sunny days."
"This cold front is coming with great force. I'm afraid it will leave a room full of moisture after it leaves."
As a native of Yue Province, Tang Wan knew what Zhao Shichen meant without even having to think about it.
The return of the south wind is an event that people in Yue Province have to appreciate every year.
There was water hanging from the walls, the floor was slippery, clothes were hard to dry, the quilt was wet, and the house was full of musty smell. When I went out to take a breath, I felt like I was drowning.
Fortunately, the return of the south wind is often accompanied by sunny days and lasts no more than three days.
Tang Wan withdrew her gaze from the sky and turned it to Zhao Shichen.
Zhao Shichen had previously said that he wanted to be a psychiatrist, which really aroused Tang Wan's curiosity.
"Junior, why did you want to be a doctor? Or a psychiatrist?"
Zhao Shichen also turned his gaze to Tang Wan, with a smile on his face, "Senior, are you planning to get along well with me?"
"You don't have to tell me. I won't force you."
The two of them strolled on the plastic track, one on the left and one on the right. From time to time, strong winds blew, ruffling their hair.
Zhao Shichen smoothed down the hair on his temples and said, "Before New Year's Day this year, I had never thought about becoming a doctor. Being a doctor requires a long learning cycle, five years for undergraduate, three years for master's, and another three years for doctoral. Even if you study for undergraduate, master's, and doctoral degrees consecutively, it will take eight years. After graduation, you will need three years of regular training. You will be almost 30 after completing the whole process. At this age, people of the same age are either buying cars or houses, while medical students have just acquired the ability to practice independently.
It would be fine if he could learn from Zhou Chaochang, as long as he had better treatment, but the salary is not that good, and he even had to pay for his early internship. The work is hard and tiring, and the doctor-patient relationship has been tense in recent years. When he encounters unreasonable patients, he not only has no way to deal with them, but also has to worry about being killed by surgery. The physical and mental pressure is huge. "
Tang Wan couldn't help but think of her mother.
When Tang Wan was in her first and second year of high school, Zhao Huijuan often nagged her, hoping that she would study medicine in college, where she would receive good pay and a high social status. Having an extra doctor at home would also help prevent accidents.
As a result, she turned around and came back from the hospital and started complaining that the doctor was heartless and had no morals, and only cared about making money. He asked her to do all kinds of tests for a simple cold.
Tang Wan wanted to tell Zhao Huijuan, how can the doctor know your condition without an examination? And you went to a tertiary hospital, the doctor must have preconceived ideas and think the condition is too serious.
After thinking it over again and again, Tang Wan finally didn't say it out loud.
It is difficult to change a person's mind, especially from the younger generation to the older generation.
The elders will only think, I have eaten more salt than you have eaten rice, why should I listen to you.
"So, what happened that changed your mind?" Tang Wan asked.
There was silence for a long time.
Zhao Shichen seemed to have finally figured out what to say, and slowly said, "I met a girl in the first grade of junior high school. She was average looking, had a doll-like hairstyle, and wore a pair of black-framed glasses. She studied hard, was among the best in her class, was lively and cheerful, and had a good relationship with everyone in her class. She and I sat at the same table, and later became good friends. We often competed to see who had better grades, and the loser would treat the winner to some grass jelly."
"Who of you wins more?"
"In the early days, I lost more than I won. I could beat her once at most in a semester. Later, when we were in the third year of junior high school, we switched positions. I rushed to the top five in the grade, but she fell all the way, from the top ten to not even in the top 30. She was still diligent in her studies, and she was not led astray by others, nor was she obsessed with external things, but she couldn't stop the downward trend in her grades."
Tang Wan could more or less guess the reason behind it.
Sometimes when your ranking drops, it’s not because you’ve regressed, but because others have made progress.
Especially in junior high school, some students who are lazy and lack knowledge can be ranked 40th or 50th in the grade. Once they pick up their books and study seriously, their grades will immediately soar to a higher level.
This situation still exists in the senior year of high school, but the knowledge in high school is broad, there are many knowledge points, and they are even related to each other, so there are relatively fewer dark horses.
Zhao Shichen didn't know what Tang Wan was thinking, so he continued, "Gradually, she changed. She became taciturn and didn't like to talk to people. She became increasingly distant from everyone in the class, including me. After the high school entrance examination, she completely lost contact with me. I heard from others that she failed the high school entrance examination. She didn't get into either the city middle school or Chunhua High School, and she couldn't even reach the score line for the second-level high school. In the end, she went to an ordinary school with no reputation."
"Didn't you take the initiative to look for her?" Tang Wan asked softly.
"I did look for her. Of course I did. I went to look for her as soon as the high school entrance exam results came out, but her whole family had moved away. No one knew where they had moved to. When I called her, the number was no longer in service. All the messages I sent to her on QQ and WeChat fell into the sea. It was as if she had evaporated from the face of the earth."
Tang Wan lowered her head slightly, and an invisible wall pressed against her chest, making it difficult for her to breathe.
She and Xu Nian were as close as sisters. Just imagine, if one day Xu Nian also "gradually drifted away and had no more letters", Tang Wan would probably cry her heart out.
What’s the difference between suddenly losing all contact with good friends of more than ten years and losing a loved one?
Zhao Shichen continued, "Since then, every time I think of her, I always feel regretful. We were getting along so well, how could she suddenly go away?"
"How did you get in touch later?"
"Last National Day, I received a call from her. She asked me if I wanted to go out with her, and I agreed immediately. She has hardly changed. She is still the same as before, with her hair in a doll shape, black-framed glasses, a bright smile, and a lively and cheerful demeanor. We went shopping together, bought clothes, watched a movie, found a food court and ate from start to finish, and talked about each other's recent situation."
"You didn't ask why he disappeared?"
Zhao Shichen shook his head and said, "I didn't ask anything. I didn't dare to ask. I didn't even add her on QQ or WeChat. I finally managed to renew our relationship, and I was afraid she would just leave without saying goodbye. I only asked her out on New Year's Day, and she said yes."
New Year.
Thinking of what Zhao Shichen had said earlier about depression, Tang Wan had a bad feeling.
"Could it be..."
Zhao Shichen lowered his eyes and pounced on Tang Wan with strong emotions.
"I called her on New Year's Day, and it was her mother who answered the phone. Her mother told me that she had passed away a week ago. I asked how she died, and her mother said she had depression and didn't get good treatment, so she jumped off the building in the middle of the night. I asked again if she left anything behind, and her mother said no."
After saying that, Zhao Shichen tilted her head back and closed her eyes. There was a circle of red around her eyes.
It's late at night and everyone is asleep, leaving nothing behind. This means I'm determined to leave and have no regrets.
Tang Wan felt very upset, but she could only purse her lips and could not utter a word of comfort.
She could be infected by Zhao Shichen's emotions, but without similar experiences, she could not empathize with him.
I can't empathize with you, and no matter how many words I say to comfort you, they will be pale and powerless.
"A person, a living person, was talking and laughing with me two months ago, and we had agreed to hang out together next time. How could she just disappear like that? And she didn't even leave a piece of paper or a single word. Why could she be so cruel?"
As he spoke, Zhao Shichen became more and more excited, and his voice trembled.
Until the end, Zhao Shichen could no longer hold back her tears. She squatted down, buried her head in her knees, and sobbed softly.
Logan couldn't give an answer.
She has never suffered from depression and cannot understand the psychology of people with depression.
She could only stand by quietly, waiting for Zhao Shichen to vent all his emotions.
After a while, the sobbing sound gradually subsided and the shaking of Zhao Shichen's shoulders also subsided.
Tang Wan handed over a pack of tissues at the right time.
"Wipe it."
"Thank you, senior sister."
Zhao Shichen uttered a mosquito-like sound of thanks and took the tissue.
After a rustling noise, Zhao Shichen stood up again with a calm expression, except that his eyes were still red and swollen.
"Is this why you want to be a psychiatrist?" Tang Wan asked.
"Yes." Zhao Shichen said firmly.
“But you can’t save everyone.”
"Even saints can't save everyone, let alone an ordinary person like me? I can save as many people as I can."
“This road is difficult to walk.”
"No matter how hard it is, someone has to do it. I can't ask others to do it, so I can only do it myself."
The two walked around the plastic track several times and chatted a lot.
Tang Wan gained a deeper understanding of Zhao Shichen, and vice versa.
Before I knew it, the bell rang again.
Tang Wan glanced at the sky and asked, "What class is it now?"
"It's the fifth period, time to go to the cafeteria for lunch." Zhao Shichen said truthfully.
"Then I should go. Lu You and I have an appointment to have lunch together at noon, so let's stop talking about this today!"
Seeing Tang Wan was about to leave, Zhao Shichen hurriedly shouted, "Wait, Senior Sister!"
"Is there anything else?" Tang Wan asked puzzledly.
Zhao Shichen took out his phone and asked, "Can I add QQ or WeChat?"
Tang Wan hesitated for a moment, but under Zhao Shichen's expectant gaze, she chose to refuse.
"Sorry, can't."
"Why? Aren't we having a good chat?" Zhao Shichen asked in surprise.
Tang Wan looked apologetic and said, "If you haven't confessed to me, I'll add you on WeChat. But if you have confessed to me, you need Lu You's consent to add me on WeChat."
Zhao Shichen frowned and said, "It's not that serious, is it? Senior is so strict? He even controls my friendships?"
Tang Wan shook her head and said, "He trusts me a lot and never interferes with my friendships. So I can't betray his trust and add my love rival on WeChat."
"Not even girls?"
"Love rivals have nothing to do with gender."
Zhao Shichen sighed and put the phone back in his pocket.
"Senior, you are really devoted to me!"
Tang Wan smiled, "Of course!"
……
After saying goodbye to Zhao Shichen, Tang Wan ran straight towards the school gate.
From a distance, you can see a boy under the big tree in front of the school gate, attracting the attention of passing girls like a magnet.
Tang Wan curled her lips, feeling a little unhappy.
It's not a good thing that this boy stands out too much.
In order to drive away the butterflies that were eager to try, Tang Wan quickened her pace and hugged Lu You's arm.
"Hubby, do you miss me?"
The hostess returned and the butterflies around her scattered.
Lu You touched Tang Wan's head and smiled gently.
"you guess?"
"I won't guess. Tell me yourself."
Lu You raised his other hand and presented the milk tea in his hand to Tang Wan.
"Red beans grow in the south, and they sprout in spring. I hope you can pick more of them, as they are the most aphrodisiac. I just bought some red bean milk tea, with less sugar and coconut flakes, drink it while it's hot."
Tang Wan cheered, took the milk tea with both hands, and kissed Lu You.
"You are worthy of being my husband. I love you so much!"
"What do you want to eat for lunch?"
Tang Wan inserted the straw, took a big sip, and said, "Let's go to Shaxian Hotel. I'll treat you!"
"Are you really treating me?"
"It's all for you!" (End of this chapter)